There’s fear within me. Afraid of losing you when I told you what I felt the last time you hugged me tight in the frosty night. Maybe it wasn’t your intention to make me feel loved but I used to keep it in myself. I don’t want to lose a best friend if I ‘ll ask you why?”.
You were just amazing as you are even people doesn’t see it but my eyes can see your colour. I am seeing future with you waking up in the morning. Refresh, contented and comfortable with each other. Seeing you grow as a man of dignity and solid foundation of faith. Why am I seeing these things on a friend like you? I didn’t ask myself to feel this way as I am living to comfort you as good friend as usual. I believe in you. Laughing and crying together is what we used to do. I feel so painless when we are having uncountable exchange of thoughts about our desires. I never thought that we’ll be at this point of maturity. I just love the way you looked at me taking photographs while drinking coffee. Reminiscing every single cheer that we had with cans of Heineken with European steak on the well dined table. How lovely was the acoustic live band music outside?
You were there to slap me when I was totally insane about my previous ended relationship and on the time that I got emotionally damaged headaches. You’ve turned your back already on me when I couldn’t be there beside you in times of sadness and full loneliness but I didn’t know what’s with you that I used to beg for your approach. I just felt so melted when we had that cold situation and praying that we’ll never be like that again. Thank you for letting me in to your life again.
Full dark sky without stars came into your life and I couldn’t hold my tears to drop from my eyes. I am sorry for our lost. I did what I can do and still praying for you to have more strength. Never think that I’ll be leaving you. Until I reach the end of this human life, I will do what I shall do, to bring you in light and lead your path. I want to experience success with you, both on our career and on spiritual life because I don’t want us to be apart after life. Lean on me Mr. Lonely and hold into our memories, don’t you cry on nothing.
Maybe I am confused in between my previous and present emotional situation but when the day come that I am not able to recognize who you and I really are, read me this letter of confess. I will keep this here as I feel that we are both not ready to be what it should be as humans. Just keep sharing your everyday and I will do the same. In this relationship we have, I believe that this will last.
“17 For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all.
18 So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen, since what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.” ___ 2 Corinthians 4:17-18
